“I am going to have a website and write a blog“
Such a clear statement. Followed by doing absolutely nothing for at least a year.
Well, I did do some things. I bought a domain. Or eight. I purchased hosting and a website theme and then it got hard. Then I “paused” which is another way of saying I stopped.
What if what I write is stupid? What if someone I know reads it? What if nobody likes it? What if? What if? What if?
So much to think about.
Overcome With Fear
During the year when I didn’t really produce any content. I was overcome with fear. I had to learn to embrace the fear. Eventually I came to the conclusion that it would affect me more if I never truly tried. I would always dwell on the “missed” opportunity.
Now that I am really trying, I will know what could be, instead of only imagining it.
Since I have decided to embrace the fear of failure, I am much happier for it.
A World of Contradictions
We are so full of contradictions. For example I love to be alone but thrive when I am surrounded with great people. I am nervous and shy but can act confident and funny. Sometimes it can be exhausting.
I often need to be alone. I can find it difficult to function to a high standard when I am surrounded by too many people and their inevitable noise. At the same time I enjoy travelling and will often talk with a complete stranger, whether that be at the supermarket or on the train, anywhere really.
I have many interests and what surprised me the most, was that I ended up working as an accountant. I have grit. I keep at it and find solutions to often complex problems.
However, when it comes to trusting others to be open and welcoming, that I find the most difficult.
So after at least a year without significant progress, I am getting this done.
I am actually starting a real life blog.
Here to Add Value
I expect it will probably be pretty dire to begin with. But I am here. I have arrived and I mean to add value.
Gone are the days of endless consumption, of taking and of not giving back. Here I am, adding content and hoping for the best. Hoping that my content will add value to your life.
Don’t be too Hard on Yourself
We can be very quick to judge ourselves harshly.
We compare our starting point with the successful end point of others who are experts. That type of comparison is a no-win situation.
So here I am.
I will likely suck to begin with. I give myself permission to suck at this. Provided I learn from my mistakes. Life is full of learning and I learn best when I make mistakes.
I expect to edit, delete and replace items as time goes by. That’s okay. Its great to be a work in progress.
I mean aren’t we all a work in progress? After all this is our first time living this life.
I don’t want to be the finished product yet. If I was, I wouldn’t have anything to aim for in terms of self-development to become a better version of myself.
Just Start, and then Persevere Until You Reach Success
I mean isn’t that what every successful student, entrepreneur and professional has done throughout their lives? I know I have. I didn’t get everything right all of the time when I was studying for my accounting exams and climbing the corporate ladder.
How about we just get it done. Do it, and then repeat. Do it again and again and again. Then one day, take a look back and you will be astonished at just how far you have come.
Here I am.
Hello my name is Dallas and I am an Accountant by day. Blogger by night.
Fiercely Independent woman, mother and wife all of the time.
I am so very glad to meet you.